29th Feb 2008

29th Feb 2008

2:01 AM
im alone; im emo;

I've always been quiter a believer of horoscopes.

Gemini (May 21 - Jun 21)

The Bottom Line
You've been a real action hero lately, zooming to everyone's rescue -- take a break!

In Detail
Feeling a bit stressed out? It might be the right time to experience what life is like from the sidelines. You've been a regular action hero lately, zooming to the rescue and coming to the aid of the people who you value and the people who value you. But boy, that can be exhausting work! Take some time out from being there for others. Be there for yourself! Treat yourself to a mellow, quiet night (and don't forget to turn off your phone!). You can get back into the action tomorrow.

Thats my horoscope for today. And I think I'm gonna heed its advice.
I'll tell you how I really felt after the break. Maybe thats the best way.

3:39 PM
im alone; im emo;

Today, i watched the movie, P.S. I Love You. This, is the first movie, tat really made me tear. And i really mean the First. Alot of things in it, made me think, and alot of things in it, made me feel. The scene of how Gerry and Holly first met, their conversation, their thinking during the process, made me feel alot. Really made me feel wad love is. Made me feel the feeling of being loved, the feeling of losing ur love, by force. Tot of alot of things tat would have applied to me too.. Daniel, who is super straight forward, cause he had this super strange personality. When daniel told Holly about how he felt at the dining table, i somehow felt tat im on the same boat. Question of love-after-death have been asked frequently in this movie, which i think linked up with the factor tat amplified the meaning of "P.S. I Love You".

Damn~ this show.. this is the first time i felt like watching the same movie again right after it finished. Guys and gals, u could go see P.S. I Love You, or you could hit yourself on the head with a Thor's Hammer. I dono if its juz me tat has grown up and tat i can feel and understand the movie, or is it that this movie is too good to make me feel this much out of it. I felt alot of things which i cant really explain in words. If u watched this movie and don feel anything, i think u wouldn't even noe how to appreciate and understand more about wad love is. alrites, tats all tat i can say bout the movie, but i wanna watch one more time seriously. i wanna understand more of it. And i wanna be someone's Gerry too. =)

Do u really noe wad u wan? cause i do.

1:11 AM
im alone; im emo;

Hey~ its been quite awhile since my last update. hahas. ok first things first..

11:45 AM
im alone; im emo;

Yo dudes!~ today! my very first paper! wahahas, i guess it went well yo~ hahas. only got 1 part dono how to do only =DD but tmr maths paper i thnk i die liao -.- although its only maths, but its not as easy as it sounds man! for me la. lols. wa today abit giddy man. i think i chiong too much le -.- but mei guan xi, after a good nite's rest, everything will be as good as new! hahas. ok maybe not all the time -.-

Anyways!~ this coming thurs, qing da jia zuo hao zhun bei, 3 v 3, dou niu, yao bu yao. Don forget, my middle name is "Dunk". Ca"Dunk"sh. L-O-L! ok not funny~ -.- alrites, those haven finish paper one, Jia You! =DD Those finish paper one, ni zou kai hao bu hao?! L-O-L! alrites, still feeling a liiiiitle bit dizzy, gonna rest awhile den start chiong again le argh~ Takkaire yo!~ =)

Status:
BF: NO MORE! =D
MATHS: 30% -.- gonna try to chiong to at least 70% tonite -.-
ITL: STILL haven touched it yet -.- but no worries yea? hees. (ok don't sound convincing)

10:35 PM
im alone; im emo;

Im back to blog. today will be a supe short post cause i needa slp soon for my exam tmr -.- I dono why, i cant study alot as compared to when i go to sku to study -.- at home cannot think pro0perly, but i'll try my best yo~ and i feel a little uncomfortable now, i think i might be having a fever. argh! Ok im gonna go rest now. cya guys soon.

Status:
BF = trying to maintain at a passable lvl for tmr.
ITL = haven touched it yet -.-
Maths = touched on it a little, but still got lots to go. 15% done i guess.


Hope you are doing well =(

10:58 PM
im alone; im emo;

Completed a significant amount of studying. Felt so proud of myself, hao you chen jiu gan oh~ hahas. hmm, today suppose to go out with my family to check out some matching Curry Fish Heads together with my hip uncle(guess u guys nvr saw my hip uncle b4 also, next time got pic zai show u guys. hahas) yo!~ BUT! i really needa study for exams so cant go, argh!~ Was busy with stuffs and did not study for the past few days.. =) So needa make it up for myself now. Hahas.

my psp screen is fixed today! now don have to kao gan jue press button to scroll for my songs liao -.- its quite irritating u noe? im sure helemia and ivan noe. hahas! Ok now im so gonna put my psp in a hard cover. lols. alrites, gonna check out some matching lunch first.

Have a nice day ok u? cause today's quite a nice day to me. hahas. Ya u! Come on man~ u noe who u are. ok wadever juz have a nice day alrites? L-O-L

Status:
BF = 95% done (can say is finish study, cause i cant get 100 marks yea? hahas)
ITL = 0% done (BUT! im gonna start studying after my lunch =D)
MATHS = 0% done (don worry, its juz maths, i guess. hahas)

Do u noe? Im missing you badly. =(

3:11 PM
im alone; im emo;

Damn again today!~ totally cant get myself to study. ARGH! Cash! Pls don think of other things now and KEEP UR FOCUS! Come on man! u're supposed to get tat freaking BF completed today! Keep on track yo!~ ok imma force myself to consolidation now.. namyo linki kyo~ namyo linki kyo~ concentrate concentrate Don keep thinking too much le. At least for now.

Status:
everything same as last post -.-

2:06 PM
im alone; im emo;

Damn!~ i think after chinese new year really don have much to blog about le man! argh~ Didnt blog about usual daily stuffs cause lidat read liao will very sian. hahas. must post on something interesting den ppl will continue reading ma~ L-O-L

About Vday! hmm, all i can say is.. lidat lor. =)

About today! ARGH!~ today finally start chiong study. finished 1 chapter of one module called Business Finance, still got 2 more chaps of it -.- den the other 2 more module haven touch. 1 module called Intro to Logistics, needa memorize like photostat machine lidat -.- den the other module is Maths -.- and its like A maths? -.- No cash, don give up, its only like 4 more days to ur exams! Endure!
REMEMBER! No pass = No Song and Dance! Ok, Im doing this for u Mr/Mrs Dance, So u better appreciate it! L-O-L. Ok im like talking to air now. Tmr gonna go sku chiong again man!, tmr MUST finish Business Finance liao! If not Helemia tuo ku zi pao shi quan~ =D

Status:
BF = 35% done
ITL = 0% done
MATHS= 0% done

Feeling heavy every now and den, but cant help but wait.
Juz thinking about the fact tat u'll leave one day.. hot tears scald my cheeks..

11:52 PM
im alone; im emo;

Grabbed this song from Ivan Mr. KaoBeh. hahas. Damn~ Cant get this off my mind.



This song tells it all. =D

12:04 PM
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1:35 PM
im alone; im emo;

Alrite, alrite guys. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR BABAES!~
Hey i was gonna update my blog on 2nd of feb one hao bu hao?!
and that post was gonna be a nice post with some pictures, BUT!
when i reached home tat day, i wanted to upload the pictures from my phone's memory card to the com, but i cant find the freaking lil extension for the memory card! Argh!~
Moreover, my laptop's bluetooth got screwed a long time ago and there's like no way to upload my pics in my phone now -.-
So after all these "obstacles", it demoralised me so much tat i lost the will to update. L-O-L!
Hana hana!~ act chim excuses only la hor. L-O-L

But do u noe wad made me wanna update today? ok u dono -.- Its about my house. *spooks*
today, some of my relatives came to my house to bai nian. hahas. and there's this 2 cute lil cousins tat came to my house often during my house renovation for the past few weeks. ok maybe they're not tat cute. hahas. but thats not the main point.

I'll call the 2 lil cousin A and B. Now here comes the main part. I chatted with them a little juz now. Their mum said tat A can sense "xiao mingSSS" and see black shadows of them, and B can 100% SEE "xiao mingSSS" clearly as he had this 3rd eye thingy. But B can only see those tat he noes, for example my dead grandpa or grandma, something like tat... Anyways! As most of u dono, there's quite afew of "xiao mingSSS" in my house which i have ACCIDENTALLY saw during these few years of living here. SO! I brought them up to the 4th floor, whr I think has the highest chance of seeing "them". But unfortunately, both A and B did not sense or see anything juz now. wait a minute, maybe it was "But FORTUNATELY" hahas. After we went back to the living room, A and B told me tat they saw something the other time when they came to my house during renovation.

A, the one which can sense "xiao mingSSS" and can see black shadows of them. He said tat there was once when he came to the 4th floor by himself and looked down the window from there, he suddenly heard weird sounds coming from the other side of the 4th floor, and he sense tat something is going towards his direction, he ran down the stairs after hearing it. There was another time when he walk on the way going up the 4th floor, still walking up the stairs, he suddenly raise his head and saw tat the door entrance to the 4th floor there's a black shadow standing there, he juz turned and walked down the stairs quickly. B did not see anything tat time, so this means tat the "xiao mingSSS" on the 4th floor is not a relative. Hmm~ Now i noe this much. and hope u guys when listened to my story wont be afraid to come to my house next time when there's a chance yo~ hahas!

I still couldnt find the extension for my memory card though -.- so i'll juz say..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HE BIN TONG XUE!~
sry cant post any pics of my best buddy cause of the EXTENSION! argh!~ alrites. blog again soon yo~ hahas. takkaire guys. Have fun gambling and collecting angbaos! hahas.

10:02 PM
im alone; im emo;

Wads this feeling?

i cant figure it out. Wad should I do now. Is this really wad i wan? Phrases of memories flashes through my mind. Wad i have learnt to believe, wad i have learnt not to believe. The fact tat i almost forgot the most important lesson learnt. A moments incident triggered my memories of the past. Almost forgotten my mistakes. Almost repeated it. Thinking through this hard, on the train filled with buzzling crowd. Though atmostphere was lively high and ever so bright, Im in a world of my own, wintriness and tranquility, dark and motionless.

Got off the train and took a bus after tat. Looking out at the beautiful night. Somehow, colours of the scenario tat usually looks cheerful and pleasing seem dull and gloomy to me. Got down the bus. The pathway from the bus stop to my house seemed like a 2.4km long road. Fixed my view on the floor, my legs were heavy. Reached the door and took out the keys. Even turning the doorknob was an effort. Said to myself.. "Im tired. Don wanna be this way again..."

12:35 PM
im alone; im emo;